school's out!

time to start studying for the examssssssss.

but my boiler is broken... and we have no hot shower.

hmmmm.

i feel so gross i don't wanna start studying... lol.

you're not a mistake.

today i realised just how little our chinese culture allows affirmation - thank you... that's great, you're awesome, that's amazing, i love you.

and we've gotten so used to never being good enough...
either giving up, or striving on and on to be what we can't

but God says otherwise -

I love you... I created you... this is my gift to you.

and when we acknowledge that, take that gift and give it back to Him, what little we have... we get exactly the opposite of what we expect from the world.

thank you, that's amazing, I'm proud of you... I love you

i think i want to reflect a bit more of who God is... not what culture dictates me to be. i want to see the gifts that God has put into each person... not the shortcomings of human nature. to speak into the gifts in encouragement and see them grow... and perhaps in that... to be who God has called me to be.

you're amazing. God thinks so. He made you that way.. and He loves His creation.

so depressing

why are they so good... gosh

random hilarity

... today i wore a dress out... for the first time since JC prom (lol.) and and it was so hard to do AV in... and having to match things and sit properly and all... gah

and soph posted an excerpt from our conversation on facebook:

Charity: I'm so girl today. SO MAHFAN. Soph how do you do this everyday?

Gordon: (from outside the room) Charity why are you taking so long! SO unlike you.

well for the record.... kudos to all the girls who dress up and look pretty everyday.

stats monster

GRAWH. PSYC3301. why did i take you?

and why did i pick so many variables for my analysis =(
and why is everything so significant even after bonferroni correction at p<.0003????
how in the world am i supposed to interpret this @_@

you wont believe what i ate for dinner

dear housemate,

please do not ever again... cook char siew

please do not ever cook pork that has been marinating in char siew sauce for a week in the FRIDGE

and salmon that has been in the freezer for two weeks by microwaving it

...

zomg. worst dinner ever

i'm full.

Dearest beloved,

did you know that you are valued by Jesus?
that He - God of all creation loves you the way you are?
that He will come to your rescue - whatever the situation?

did you know that your worth is not dependent on your performance? and neither is it dependent on the affirmation of people around you.

did you know that you can know of Jesus - but not know Him?

did you know that He is the only one who can turn that messed-up life around?

do you know that you can meet Him by simply calling His name?

...

it's odd... my answer to those questions is that i know. and yet i don't know know... or that this knowledge doesn't take precedence in my life the way it should.

it's strange how you don't realise you're dry... until you've been filled to the overflowing.

straying heart

i don't know what dream to chase anymore...

be a techie... all the behind the scenes stuff - being able to be there and support the work of other people will always be one of my loves... making other people's dreams come true

worship leading... perhaps my oldest dream (that has been squashed and revived over and over)... but i don't know if i'll have the opportunity to do it in sg (which makes me kind of sad actually)...

play an instrument for worship... (ok i admit dun really have peace for this... except in a small small group setting... no skill haha.)

and i suppose the more 'singaporean' practical type of dream

to get the certification to practice as a clinical psychologist and to touch lives in that way

i do wonder what's my calling... with so many things on my heart at the same time.

....

anyhow... just came back from worship central... awesome. http://www.worshipcentral.org/events/12-13mar10-uk-london

i marvel at the talent God has given worship leaders... got blown away by this guy - voice, guitar skills, anointing... one guy, one guitar, Holy Spirit and 2000 worshippers. it was so amazing.

rawr

PSYC3301 is turning out to be the bane of my existence...

well at least for the next 3 weeks while i try to make sense of the project that counts for 50% of the module grade

wahlao...

wisdom in Jesus' name!

and Lord... while you're at it give me the understanding for this module and the inspiration to find a nice question to analyse. grawh.

two steps into adulthood

oh cool stuff... i spent the first hour of my birthday baking =)

hope it turns out well for the party tmr.

so it's my birthday - so my facebook wall tells me. i'm getting older ... and hopefully wiser... and my mom's started the whole 'when are you gonna get married thing' ... grandma wants great grand kids... but i'm not even attached lol.

looking at that wall though... and being reminded of the resounding rendition of 'happy birthday' just now at ocf, i'm again amazed (as i seem to be every year) of the number of people/lives i've connected with over the years... and of the fact that i'm one year older and still here.

man... God is so good.

today i am truly and wholly glad to be alive.

anyone want to share shipping with me? haha. there's two i want now

http://www.threadless.com/product/982/What_Makes_it_Go#zoom

freedom! kind of.

thesis handed in.
essay that's due tomorrow today is written though not typed or submitted.
couple of weeks before the stats project and another essay is due.
phew.

but i've had lots of rainbows in this crazy season of my life. promises of good from God to hold on to... quite literally in fact - from the memory of the sunset in brighton.