it's so much easier to post a status on facebook or even a photo on instagram nowadays but reminiscing always needs a long wordy blog post.
today at the 'farewell rock party' (if you're wondering, it's cos NCC is shifting out of its current auditorium and into the Star) there was extended 4th service worship, all the pastors made an appearance, people were busy snapping photos...
and amidst that i was meeting old friends, people whom i grew up with in youth ministry, meeting the friends of these friends (albeit awkwardly cos the church is so big don't really know half the people you recognise) and thinking about how i've spent the last 12 years growing up in the ministry and attending services at this very auditorium
i'm not really a sentimental person so didn't really spend time taking photos: much prefer to look back, take stock... and forge forwards knowing that God has gone ahead and each step of the way will be better. so... i ended up people-watching and just seeing how God has so impacted the lives of the people i've grown up with - esp. all those who've become leaders and stuff... He is just so faithful.
best of all, i got to drink a cup of teh tarik 'tarik-ed' by Pastor Dan himself (and took a pic of him making it... which i won't post haha).
not that the cup was impt... or cos he is "Pastor"... but it just warmed my heart to know that in the midst of this growing ministry, the people whom feel 'furthest away' on the platform simply have that heart for serving God and serving others. the personal touch from pastors has perhaps disappeared with each additional thousand that has entered our doors... but the heart of service and love remains. and that's our true calling isn't it? to serve others with the gifts and callings He has placed in our lives - just as Jesus serves us.
haha and at the same time i saw my generation of leaders serving others in just the same way... my friend Christine who serves in RSM (our usher ministry) went to flip prata and serve people while the prata man was off busy doing something else. crazy!
it's just such a different spirit and so precious... may i keep growing in it and keep walking in His love for others whatever the capacity i'm in. there's no time to look at these people in their current greatness and feel envious... but its time to sow seeds in the lives that i can touch with all He has given me. and hey! one day i'll perhaps be in their shoes wondering how in the world God brought me there... and filling teh tarik for people =)
Monday, December 17, 2012
Saturday, October 06, 2012
Happy Children's Day!
Awesome relaxed past two days... so blessed!
Thurs:
half day in school helping to facilitate the ACES day programme and just hanging with the kids. granted the night before was a mad rush to prepare their gifts. but twas fun going around being a blessing =). Then got to spend unplanned time with the bf due to a series of unfortunate events happening and all our other plans being cancelled.
Fri:
Went for a swim with the boy... then had my first EXCELLENT lunch in Singapore. So far all the good food has been just -good- and not comparable to the things i've had a chance to try in London. Well this lunch was comparable in price too ($60++) but food and service was top notch. Where? Les Amis @ Shaw Centre.
So in commemoration of lunch... photos!
First there was bread... white, walnut, and sea salt, of which i have no picture. the sea salt bread was something of a cross between a croissant and a brioche and marvelously fluffy
Then the amuse-bouche...
ZQ's appetizer, the eel had just the right amount of seasoning while maintaining its original flavour - and not fishy at all
my disassembled appetizer - every bite had a different and distinct flavour, and every bite was perfectly balanced with each other
ZQ's main course - which he liked but i thought wasn't very exciting. i must say the dish really brought out the flavour of each individual ingredient in a ... for lack of a better description... natural way
my main course, again looking disassembled - what i thought was mashed potato was actually cauliflower lol!
And then there was dessert:
didn't think ZQ's dessert was very special, but it was very well done
and mine... effectively a disassembled lemon meringue with ice cream. with awesome rich individual flavour
Thurs:
half day in school helping to facilitate the ACES day programme and just hanging with the kids. granted the night before was a mad rush to prepare their gifts. but twas fun going around being a blessing =). Then got to spend unplanned time with the bf due to a series of unfortunate events happening and all our other plans being cancelled.
in the midst of cutting cards and sticking chocolate |
Fri:
Went for a swim with the boy... then had my first EXCELLENT lunch in Singapore. So far all the good food has been just -good- and not comparable to the things i've had a chance to try in London. Well this lunch was comparable in price too ($60++) but food and service was top notch. Where? Les Amis @ Shaw Centre.
So in commemoration of lunch... photos!
First there was bread... white, walnut, and sea salt, of which i have no picture. the sea salt bread was something of a cross between a croissant and a brioche and marvelously fluffy
fresh butter, tomato butter and crushed sea salt |
Salmon canapé |
Lightly smoked eel "tiède", garlic croûton, ratte potato salade |
Confit "Bengal Bay" prawn, marinated red beets, celeriac, horseradish cream |
Crispy skin guinea fowl, savoy cabbage, coco bean, smoked onion ragout |
from the dish above - this was the cabbage, bean and what we think is mashed potato |
Pan roasted Challans duck breast, brussels sprouts, cauliflower purée, speck-onion glaze |
coffee that we asked to be served with dessert |
didn't think ZQ's dessert was very special, but it was very well done
Tarte tatin, hazelnut and aged sherry liqueur |
'A fancy lemon tart', thyme ice cream |
Thursday, September 13, 2012
white space
here in the Singapore education system the creators of the curriculum have created something called 'white space'. supposedly it's free time in the curriculum for teachers to spend time with the kids, prepare fun activities/ carry out said fun activities (which take up huge amounts of time). it's particularly useful for science teachers who have tons of experiments to carry out but only have about 6 periods a week (i.e. 3 hours) -about half the amount of time that teachers have with the kids for math/ english.
i think on the whole teachers need this white space - not just in the curriculum so that we can 'do more stuff with the kids' but real free time to properly plan and think about the things we care about. just read an article recently that says to 'take all the vacations you can' cos it's when you're fully rested and your mind drifts back to work that you start to want to learn and try to find ways to improve your productivity. tell me about it man... i haven't the time to think beyond what i would be doing in the next hour.
anyhow today on the way home i was feeling quite pleased with myself cos i created some artificial 'white space' for myself. i put down that red pen and ignored the pile of marking that was beckoning... and just left.
so here i am blogging about what i was thinking about on the way home
- i really should know the rationale behind everything that i do in school - but i don't actually know (my poor kids... if i don't know the rationale, how do they find purpose in what they're doing?)
- it's not sufficient to plan your time such that everything fits beautifully, your schedule is within your comfort zone where you know you can do well in everything you agree to do.
that's probably self effort - effort that demands minute control over everything such that everything can turn out in a perfect manner akin to one's expectations. (i must say at this point that this is something that i tend to do and get stressed out over cos i find that i "can't cope" with my own standards)
trusting God's grace on the other hand is to know that none of this can be done in the first place without Christ in you. for if God doesn't bless your work then all is in vain. commitment-wise... 'commit your works to the Lord' - know your limits, don't overcommit your time, but trust God that He will cause you to surpass your wildest dreams of success. He will bless the works of your hands (even when you're rushing and never feel that it's good enough... haha i'm speaking to myself here)
- i need to do my marking... i wonder if i balance everything i need to mark/ plan in a single stack on the floor if it would end up taller than my table. maybe i should try it tomorrow. hahaha.
ok back to work, and time for a run =)
i think on the whole teachers need this white space - not just in the curriculum so that we can 'do more stuff with the kids' but real free time to properly plan and think about the things we care about. just read an article recently that says to 'take all the vacations you can' cos it's when you're fully rested and your mind drifts back to work that you start to want to learn and try to find ways to improve your productivity. tell me about it man... i haven't the time to think beyond what i would be doing in the next hour.
anyhow today on the way home i was feeling quite pleased with myself cos i created some artificial 'white space' for myself. i put down that red pen and ignored the pile of marking that was beckoning... and just left.
so here i am blogging about what i was thinking about on the way home
- i really should know the rationale behind everything that i do in school - but i don't actually know (my poor kids... if i don't know the rationale, how do they find purpose in what they're doing?)
- it's not sufficient to plan your time such that everything fits beautifully, your schedule is within your comfort zone where you know you can do well in everything you agree to do.
that's probably self effort - effort that demands minute control over everything such that everything can turn out in a perfect manner akin to one's expectations. (i must say at this point that this is something that i tend to do and get stressed out over cos i find that i "can't cope" with my own standards)
trusting God's grace on the other hand is to know that none of this can be done in the first place without Christ in you. for if God doesn't bless your work then all is in vain. commitment-wise... 'commit your works to the Lord' - know your limits, don't overcommit your time, but trust God that He will cause you to surpass your wildest dreams of success. He will bless the works of your hands (even when you're rushing and never feel that it's good enough... haha i'm speaking to myself here)
- i need to do my marking... i wonder if i balance everything i need to mark/ plan in a single stack on the floor if it would end up taller than my table. maybe i should try it tomorrow. hahaha.
ok back to work, and time for a run =)
Monday, September 03, 2012
counting blessings
haven't had enough time this quarter of the year to really appreciate all the things that have happened. and so many awesome things happened amidst the busy-ness. i just wish there was more time to really savour every moment and blog about em as they come... ohwell.
some snippets from this season (boy not included haha). really see God's hand in everything... in the midst of the problems and the demands, and moments of awesomeness like these. just wanna stay thankful for all He has done =)
Monday, August 20, 2012
too fast too furious
it seems like this not having time for myself is becoming a recurrent thing with my current schedule - thus the silence over here
was just lamenting that it's a public holiday and a long weekend but it's been so busy i actually have trouble remembering all that i did these last 3 days.
but just as i was complaining to God i was prompted to think about how fruitful my life is - all the projects at work (there is always an overwhelming number of things that must be done as a teacher), being a leader at church (which also means more growth/ responsibility/ things to do), newfound love... and just living life with people
with every demand on my life and my time - it seems that there's a fruit
so i guess the real challenge for my walk with Him is to have that awareness of His presence and a dependence on Jesus... to just be in that state where i can ask before every decision or starting on a piece of work - to wait for the still small voice and direction... and to remember it's not about me, but about his provision
it really is a NEED to prioritise time with Jesus so that everything works smoothly man.
“The Lord God has given Me
The tongue of the learned,
That I should know how to speak
A word in season to him who is weary.
He awakens Me morning by morning,
He awakens My ear
To hear as the learned.
~Isaiah 50:4
He HAS GIVEN... :) need to meditate on the provision man!
was just lamenting that it's a public holiday and a long weekend but it's been so busy i actually have trouble remembering all that i did these last 3 days.
but just as i was complaining to God i was prompted to think about how fruitful my life is - all the projects at work (there is always an overwhelming number of things that must be done as a teacher), being a leader at church (which also means more growth/ responsibility/ things to do), newfound love... and just living life with people
with every demand on my life and my time - it seems that there's a fruit
so i guess the real challenge for my walk with Him is to have that awareness of His presence and a dependence on Jesus... to just be in that state where i can ask before every decision or starting on a piece of work - to wait for the still small voice and direction... and to remember it's not about me, but about his provision
it really is a NEED to prioritise time with Jesus so that everything works smoothly man.
“The Lord God has given Me
The tongue of the learned,
That I should know how to speak
A word in season to him who is weary.
He awakens Me morning by morning,
He awakens My ear
To hear as the learned.
~Isaiah 50:4
He HAS GIVEN... :) need to meditate on the provision man!
Thursday, June 07, 2012
fruit comes in all shapes and sizes
i've been too busy with school to post... and i've been too lazy to post anything this school holiday cos they were all passing thoughts and i didn't want to have to sign out of all my email accounts just to sign in to blogger (terrible reason right? haha)
anyway. i was having tea with some friends
and we were sharing about what we've been doing the last couple of months - i was telling em tt i recently 'got promoted' to be a leader in choir so life has gotten quite a bit busier with the added responsibilities.
and j said 'wow charity, just a year or so ago when we last had tea you were planning to audition for choir and worrying that you wouldn't get in'
wow indeed! i was floored... cos God is just so good. It's been a crazy busy year - i'm so out of my league... all Glory to Jesus! there were many nights of weariness, helplessness and prayer and 'i can't do this' whines... but so many things have happened in such a short span of time with such great favour and success.
so here's a quick snapshot... to thank God for:
-amazing working relations with my colleagues
-being given opportunities to sing @ church & serve in a greater capacity
-being picked to take on different roles @ work (it really doesn't make sense for them to pick me for some things considering how i'm always asking so many 'huh how to do???' questions and making mistakes)
anyway. i was having tea with some friends
and we were sharing about what we've been doing the last couple of months - i was telling em tt i recently 'got promoted' to be a leader in choir so life has gotten quite a bit busier with the added responsibilities.
and j said 'wow charity, just a year or so ago when we last had tea you were planning to audition for choir and worrying that you wouldn't get in'
wow indeed! i was floored... cos God is just so good. It's been a crazy busy year - i'm so out of my league... all Glory to Jesus! there were many nights of weariness, helplessness and prayer and 'i can't do this' whines... but so many things have happened in such a short span of time with such great favour and success.
so here's a quick snapshot... to thank God for:
-amazing working relations with my colleagues
-being given opportunities to sing @ church & serve in a greater capacity
-being picked to take on different roles @ work (it really doesn't make sense for them to pick me for some things considering how i'm always asking so many 'huh how to do???' questions and making mistakes)
the view from the treetop walk @ Bukit Chandu when we went for the P4 camp recee |
singing in the easter item @ church |
the product of many saturdays of labour with Sha & the beautiful ppl who came specially to help |
having a successful gala dinner @ school (after a ton of last min changes) |
Saturday, April 28, 2012
back to basics
sometimes worship and praise erupt out of the joy you feel.
when there's that spontaneous song keeps ringin in your head... and there's this bright hope in your heart... cos you know that you know that God's on your side and nothing can keep you down.
then there are the times where the worship comes first and the joy comes later.
this worship is cos you know in your heart that you're redeemed, cos the work has been finished. even if circumstances say otherwise. you worship cos you're grateful to have gotten this far even if you can't see the light at the other end.
you make that choice to jump, to clap, to sing cos god is worth it.. even if that jump is weary and the clapping is halfhearted. and in the midst of tt praise... God floods in and all those cares are lifted off... and you find that joy again... and the song on your lips.
worship is wholehearted surrender.
when there's that spontaneous song keeps ringin in your head... and there's this bright hope in your heart... cos you know that you know that God's on your side and nothing can keep you down.
then there are the times where the worship comes first and the joy comes later.
this worship is cos you know in your heart that you're redeemed, cos the work has been finished. even if circumstances say otherwise. you worship cos you're grateful to have gotten this far even if you can't see the light at the other end.
you make that choice to jump, to clap, to sing cos god is worth it.. even if that jump is weary and the clapping is halfhearted. and in the midst of tt praise... God floods in and all those cares are lifted off... and you find that joy again... and the song on your lips.
worship is wholehearted surrender.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
it's term 2 week 6
i've been somewhat escapist these few days...
got a mountain of marking on my table... some ongoing projects at school, not enough time to settle them... cos i'm settling some fight between my kids half the time.
and yet i don't do anything when i'm at home.
and yet i don't think i'm at rest.
need to take hold of those thoughts and bask in Daddy God's presence again. i don't know how other people do it, but i really can't work when i'm feeling sian.
i had a random thought about whether cutting would relieve the pressure again. silly i know. it's not even my thought. go away devil shoo.
got a mountain of marking on my table... some ongoing projects at school, not enough time to settle them... cos i'm settling some fight between my kids half the time.
and yet i don't do anything when i'm at home.
and yet i don't think i'm at rest.
need to take hold of those thoughts and bask in Daddy God's presence again. i don't know how other people do it, but i really can't work when i'm feeling sian.
i had a random thought about whether cutting would relieve the pressure again. silly i know. it's not even my thought. go away devil shoo.
Sunday, April 15, 2012
girlyness... hmm
i'm escaping the report book comments writing so i've decided to write on my blog instead haha.
been thinking about 'girl rights' recently... (cos i bought purple eyeliner on a whim lol.)
you know, the right to make the guys wait while you stare into the mirror in the toilet and fix your makeup/ hair.
i was just reminded of what a guy friend said to me once - that waiting is the guy's responsibility... and he'll wait for as long as the girl takes to makeup/do hair/ whatnot to look good.
i never knew that before!
i always thought that getting out of the house as fast as possible was the way to go. (as long as i was wearing something and my hair wasn't sticking out at a weird angle!) but i never really thought much about what he said until i started serving in choir and spending at least 30min on makeup on sunday mornings...
and so i'm just getting the revelation that God created all us girls to be beautiful - and we're meant to take care of our temple, make it look attractive as a part of what He has blessed us with.
i think being in the choir has grown me lots lol... from the uni days where the bros nicknamed me mgtg (more guy than guy)... to being onstage and being comfortable with makeup and all. funny how things go huh?
been thinking about 'girl rights' recently... (cos i bought purple eyeliner on a whim lol.)
you know, the right to make the guys wait while you stare into the mirror in the toilet and fix your makeup/ hair.
i was just reminded of what a guy friend said to me once - that waiting is the guy's responsibility... and he'll wait for as long as the girl takes to makeup/do hair/ whatnot to look good.
i never knew that before!
i always thought that getting out of the house as fast as possible was the way to go. (as long as i was wearing something and my hair wasn't sticking out at a weird angle!) but i never really thought much about what he said until i started serving in choir and spending at least 30min on makeup on sunday mornings...
and so i'm just getting the revelation that God created all us girls to be beautiful - and we're meant to take care of our temple, make it look attractive as a part of what He has blessed us with.
i think being in the choir has grown me lots lol... from the uni days where the bros nicknamed me mgtg (more guy than guy)... to being onstage and being comfortable with makeup and all. funny how things go huh?
Tuesday, April 03, 2012
lil snippets of happiness
been staring at this lil bag...
can't help but feel blessed and loved that i'm remembered
yet it brings an incredible emoness at the same time cos i recall the days in London all at once and can't help but compare it to life now.
need to see/ feel/ hear/ live in that same kind of contentment again. but it's kinda difficult over here.. where discontent is the one emotion that people express openly. ah well. i guess remembering London makes the current 6 years of bondage feel more worth it =P
can't help but feel blessed and loved that i'm remembered
yet it brings an incredible emoness at the same time cos i recall the days in London all at once and can't help but compare it to life now.
need to see/ feel/ hear/ live in that same kind of contentment again. but it's kinda difficult over here.. where discontent is the one emotion that people express openly. ah well. i guess remembering London makes the current 6 years of bondage feel more worth it =P
Friday, March 30, 2012
eyes on the prize
these last two weeks have been incredibly exciting/ challenging/ heart-stopping/ painful/ crazy.
every step of the way i've realised tt i really can't make it through my own efforts... they'll just never be good enough.
like...
-the standard of the exam paper i set
-what people think of me at work
-how i manage expectations & people (this one really really need grace man)
-how i really don't have it all together and tend to screw up in the little things
then there were the 'what-ifs' that came to my mind this week, wondering how things would have turned out if i had made a decision back then out to say i felt rather than following my fear of the consequences - to put my heart out there and trust God to keep it safe rather than trying to guard it all by myself
but Jesus really comes through in times like these. saw it in the grace and the favour extended at work... in the stability of my heart in those broken moments where i had to come to terms with my shortcomings... in peaceable resolution of conflict in the times where i couldn't cope...
so i'll keep my eyes on the prize... Jesus Christ... and He'll come through for me.
let my steps be directed by God's will and not mine. and i'll surrender that person who managed get in so deep in my heart (without me realising it till now) to my First Love... and trust that His plans for me will always work out for good and for His glory.
every step of the way i've realised tt i really can't make it through my own efforts... they'll just never be good enough.
like...
-the standard of the exam paper i set
-what people think of me at work
-how i manage expectations & people (this one really really need grace man)
-how i really don't have it all together and tend to screw up in the little things
then there were the 'what-ifs' that came to my mind this week, wondering how things would have turned out if i had made a decision back then out to say i felt rather than following my fear of the consequences - to put my heart out there and trust God to keep it safe rather than trying to guard it all by myself
but Jesus really comes through in times like these. saw it in the grace and the favour extended at work... in the stability of my heart in those broken moments where i had to come to terms with my shortcomings... in peaceable resolution of conflict in the times where i couldn't cope...
so i'll keep my eyes on the prize... Jesus Christ... and He'll come through for me.
let my steps be directed by God's will and not mine. and i'll surrender that person who managed get in so deep in my heart (without me realising it till now) to my First Love... and trust that His plans for me will always work out for good and for His glory.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
happy unbirthday!
my birthday passed... in a flurry of activity and no great presents or celebration or whatever. boring right? the actual day itself was DISGUSTINGLY BUSY.
that said, all the well wishes and random remarks made it bearable... and my kids waited quietly in class just to wish me happy birthday =) so sweet right? to those who remembered and made a point to say something/ do something - you made my day =)
and to God... who orchestrated a leaders meeting that was sprung on me at the last minute in the midst of the business - thank You... i absolutely needed that to refocus and keep sane.
well for now the term madness and exam madness has ended (hooray it's the march holidays!). i can finally breathe again and enjoy my year-older-status heh.
that said, all the well wishes and random remarks made it bearable... and my kids waited quietly in class just to wish me happy birthday =) so sweet right? to those who remembered and made a point to say something/ do something - you made my day =)
and to God... who orchestrated a leaders meeting that was sprung on me at the last minute in the midst of the business - thank You... i absolutely needed that to refocus and keep sane.
well for now the term madness and exam madness has ended (hooray it's the march holidays!). i can finally breathe again and enjoy my year-older-status heh.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
someday maybe
had a conversation with one of my kids today...
boy: miss kam, maths is so hard! what was your worst subject? or your best subject?
me: er i don't know... i got all As in primary schcool
boy: so good! what school you go?
me: oh i went to this school, same as you
boy: har. then what secondary school you go
me: raffles
boy: then after that?
me: also raffles
boy: but then raffles is the very good that one right?
me: mhm
boy: so good one, i sure cannot go
me: it never hurts to try right?
boy: cannot one lah, all my subjects so lousy.
i was mulling over this convo on the way home today - wish that i could've told him that his worth isn't in his grades or in what school he gets into... wish i could've told him that his worth comes from his creator - and that his creator loves him, that he isn't a mistake even if he's failing school, that he is made for something great. after all, i never believed i would amount to anything even though i got all straight As and went to good schools.
honestly... only Jesus matters...
boy: miss kam, maths is so hard! what was your worst subject? or your best subject?
me: er i don't know... i got all As in primary schcool
boy: so good! what school you go?
me: oh i went to this school, same as you
boy: har. then what secondary school you go
me: raffles
boy: then after that?
me: also raffles
boy: but then raffles is the very good that one right?
me: mhm
boy: so good one, i sure cannot go
me: it never hurts to try right?
boy: cannot one lah, all my subjects so lousy.
i was mulling over this convo on the way home today - wish that i could've told him that his worth isn't in his grades or in what school he gets into... wish i could've told him that his worth comes from his creator - and that his creator loves him, that he isn't a mistake even if he's failing school, that he is made for something great. after all, i never believed i would amount to anything even though i got all straight As and went to good schools.
honestly... only Jesus matters...
Saturday, February 18, 2012
only by grace
i was humbled this week and awed at God's favour in my life - i was running to class (cos i left my kids alone to get some stuff from the staffroom tt i forgot) and a girl said hi to me. I vaguely registered the 'hi' but i actually didn't know her =/ oops. then i overheard this as i continued speeding past...
friend: who's that?
girl: i just said hi to my favourite teacher
like... omg i can't remember her name and i'm her fav teacher??? i'm guessing it must have been from last year's 'Super Relief Teacher' experience where i taught every single class in the morning session as an internal relief cos they didn't have a class to give me.
but. seriously... THIS MUST BE GOD.
friend: who's that?
girl: i just said hi to my favourite teacher
like... omg i can't remember her name and i'm her fav teacher??? i'm guessing it must have been from last year's 'Super Relief Teacher' experience where i taught every single class in the morning session as an internal relief cos they didn't have a class to give me.
but. seriously... THIS MUST BE GOD.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
you know you're loved when...
someone gets you free coffee!!! haha.
well that's what Jesus got me today. i went to starbucks instead of getting bubble tea (prompting?) then realised that my friend sent me a starbucks promo while i was in the queue! one for one coffee+cupcake set =) so i got my drink to tide me through the marking... a drink to tide me through tmr... and a yummy cupcake to top it off.
http://weheartit.com/entry/14449151/via/tiatyra |
well that's what Jesus got me today. i went to starbucks instead of getting bubble tea (prompting?) then realised that my friend sent me a starbucks promo while i was in the queue! one for one coffee+cupcake set =) so i got my drink to tide me through the marking... a drink to tide me through tmr... and a yummy cupcake to top it off.
Wednesday, February 01, 2012
Life Cycles
i've been on this topic for quite some time in science... life cycles - how life just keeps repeating and growing and repeating
so now i've a penchant for linking things with arrows ⇒ like so
anyway... today i was just thinking about responsibility (mainly cos i just received news of increased responsibility recently)... and i can't wrap my mind around it. i'm just so underserving of the position. i'm new, noob, make blunder upon blunder... yet here i am experiencing grace upon grace
and here it is, represented with arrows:
i prioritise rest in God ⇒ God increases me ⇒ people see and increase responsibilities ⇒ i just have to prioritise rest in Jesus' finished work cos i can't cope ⇒ God increases me ⇒ people see and increase responsibilities ⇒ i just have to prioritise rest in Jesus' finished work cos i can't cope ⇒ God increases me ⇒ people see and increase responsibilities ⇒ i just have to prioritise rest in Jesus' finished work cos i can't cope
so awesome.
so now i've a penchant for linking things with arrows ⇒ like so
anyway... today i was just thinking about responsibility (mainly cos i just received news of increased responsibility recently)... and i can't wrap my mind around it. i'm just so underserving of the position. i'm new, noob, make blunder upon blunder... yet here i am experiencing grace upon grace
and here it is, represented with arrows:
i prioritise rest in God ⇒ God increases me ⇒ people see and increase responsibilities ⇒ i just have to prioritise rest in Jesus' finished work cos i can't cope ⇒ God increases me ⇒ people see and increase responsibilities ⇒ i just have to prioritise rest in Jesus' finished work cos i can't cope ⇒ God increases me ⇒ people see and increase responsibilities ⇒ i just have to prioritise rest in Jesus' finished work cos i can't cope
so awesome.
Friday, January 27, 2012
i do wonder
today as i was finishing up work (or packing up to bring work home lol) i had a random thought:
i'm really not very much good at anything but studying
and then a secondary thought:
i wasn't THAT great at studying... yeah i'm smart, but so are the people i grew up with
hmm... so come to think of it... what exactly am i good at?? defo not teaching... i'm still as noob as it gets.
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i guess i should just become good at depending on God.
i'm really not very much good at anything but studying
and then a secondary thought:
i wasn't THAT great at studying... yeah i'm smart, but so are the people i grew up with
hmm... so come to think of it... what exactly am i good at?? defo not teaching... i'm still as noob as it gets.
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i guess i should just become good at depending on God.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
eyes on me
"EYES ON YOU!"
at least that's what i've trained my kids to say.
i keep encountering this problem in class - i give out a worksheet, and everyone gets busy writing their name, looking at the questions, and then i get at least 10 questions of the same kind, all asking 'how to do this teacher?' well. usually i try to preempt them... give out the worksheet, get their attention with 'eyes on me', give the instructions, go through a few examples... and then off they are on their own.
and i was just thinking on the way home that i'm probably like my kids when it comes to life. i hit a roadblock... and i spend all the time trying to figure out a way to solve it, pull my hair out... and maybe, eventually, ask God 'how to dooo? what do i do next?' ... God's probably like me on the other end, saying 'eyes on me' but i'm too preoccupied to notice. and He just repeats that and waits (with much more patience than i have in class) and waits till i finally look up and away from the 'problems on my desk' and he can finally guide me through the process till everything is solved.
hmm.
at least that's what i've trained my kids to say.
i keep encountering this problem in class - i give out a worksheet, and everyone gets busy writing their name, looking at the questions, and then i get at least 10 questions of the same kind, all asking 'how to do this teacher?' well. usually i try to preempt them... give out the worksheet, get their attention with 'eyes on me', give the instructions, go through a few examples... and then off they are on their own.
and i was just thinking on the way home that i'm probably like my kids when it comes to life. i hit a roadblock... and i spend all the time trying to figure out a way to solve it, pull my hair out... and maybe, eventually, ask God 'how to dooo? what do i do next?' ... God's probably like me on the other end, saying 'eyes on me' but i'm too preoccupied to notice. and He just repeats that and waits (with much more patience than i have in class) and waits till i finally look up and away from the 'problems on my desk' and he can finally guide me through the process till everything is solved.
hmm.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
my current occupation
lol. that's probably the opinion of my students... 'why is there always work for us to do??'
that said, i have a few plastic boxes of THIS on my table at work
cool? the kids get to bring em home and grow them into beetles to learn about the life cycle. this part of the education system i absolutely love. though i must say the mealworms shit a lot and are smelly and take up space on my table =P
Lord help me be an educator, a leader, a mentor... not that dude who goes into class and lectures boredom cos it's in the syllabus.
Saturday, January 07, 2012
the end of 'hell week'
i have survived the first week of school... and even manage to nua the whole day away today =)
part of this rest was spent watching fireproof and one line of the theme song caught my attention
"love is peace in the middle of a war"
maybe everyday at school is a battlefield... being a teacher is like firefighting
but Christ in me the hope of glory - my peace in the storm
part of this rest was spent watching fireproof and one line of the theme song caught my attention
"love is peace in the middle of a war"
maybe everyday at school is a battlefield... being a teacher is like firefighting
but Christ in me the hope of glory - my peace in the storm
Monday, January 02, 2012
here it is again.
the time to look ONLY to JESUS
and say that the country i'm in doesn't matter
the people i'm surrounded by do not dictate who i am
the amount of work i need to do doesn't matter
the amount of time i have to do that work doesn't matter
how i perform DOESN'T MATTER
Lord teach me to not get caught up in the busyness of life. this should be where i'm at everyday
the time to look ONLY to JESUS
and say that the country i'm in doesn't matter
the people i'm surrounded by do not dictate who i am
the amount of work i need to do doesn't matter
the amount of time i have to do that work doesn't matter
how i perform DOESN'T MATTER
Lord teach me to not get caught up in the busyness of life. this should be where i'm at everyday
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