indecision + grace

i'm really n00b and dunno what i'm doing... and dunno whether i'm making a wise choice... there's no right or wrong to it... just timing and season... (if you're kaypoh enough you can poke me on msn... i'll tell if you're a close fren)

anyhow.

we're reading/studying the book of hebrews for OCF... hebrews chapter 1... but i got stuck around the first few verses cos they're just too awesome:

God, who at various times and in various ways spoke in time past to the fathers by the prophets, has in these last days spoken to us by His Son, whom He has appointed heir of all things, through whom also He made the worlds; who being the brightness of His glory and the express image of His person, and upholding all things by the word of His power, when He had by Himself purged our sins, sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high, having become so much better than the angels, as He has by inheritance obtained a more excellent name than they.
~Hebrews 1:1-4

what right do i have... to have a saviour intercede for me... God's Son Himself came to my level and 'by Himself purged (my) sins' doing a complete work to clense me of all my sins (all my falling short of God)... who finally sat down (complete rest after a finished work) at the right hand (my saviour is God's right hand man!!) of God.

what right do i have... to have that intimacy with God? to have such an awesome intercessor... my Saviour King be a channel of communication.. the chapter goes on to describe the standing of Jesus in God's eyes. i can't even begin to imagine such an awesome personality coming down to my level... coming down to take my sins... to give me that intimacy with God.

[and then remember all the blessings of God in Christ that are yours because of this. wow.]

today i was just reading Numbers 16 (i'm reading my way through the bible... finally =P)

go read it for yourself... but here's a quick summary:
the people of israel came against moses and aaron, determining that they should come directly to God and protesting their leadership... so moses told them to offer incense to God. God judges them sinful, the earth opens and swallows the families up... the people offering incense get burnt to a crisp. ouch. so the people are damn scared... God tells eleazar to pick the cencers out of the blaze and make a covering on the altar [beautiful picture of Jesus here] to remind the children of israel of this day (but i think they forgot rather quickly)
the next day they speak out again.. and God's judgement comes and they die like flies till Aaron runs out with a censer of incense and stands between the living and the dead making atonement for the people.

read Hebrews 1:1 again... knowing what the judgement of God is like... (and that's just for the people complaining against the leaders of God and having no faith...) man i would be burnt and gone for all the times i've complained to God and question His existence in my life.

mmm. grace.



okay off to shop (hehe.) and to church.