expectations

guess i'll blog this now instead of tmr since i'm preparing stuff for it... [looks like i won't get any work done this week at all... since we're going shopping for cold wear tmr]

such excitement... anticipation... awe at what God is doing in my life
i am leading a group. and i have no clue what i'm supposed to do.

but i know..
that God's gonna work mightily
there will be ministering... people's lives will be transformed

and i have a part to play.

so exciting!!! and so unexpected. i was ambivalent to the OCF retreat at first cos i thought 'well it's something organised by students... no ministry... i guess it'll just be one of those camps.' how wrong. it's impossible. simply impossible - i realised - for God to be in the house... and for lives to remain and not be transformed.

i expect my portion from this camp, though it be student run, with a pastor i have never heard of, though it be people from different denominations who would argue over the nitty-gritty in the word, though it be my first time serving in an official leadership position...

i expect, Lord, that your glory fill the place and the anointing flow as the word goes forth

i expect refreshing, a renewing of the mind, fresh revelation of Your love.

i expect healing, lives to be ministered to, hope brought forth, direction.

i expect to encounter You. Daddy God. not just the still small voice but the strong rushing tangible presence.

be so REAL Daddy God.

and it's so awesome. i know. i know that i know - that this is the turning point... and it's just a few hours away!