my God provides

wow it's been almost a month since my last post... and it's been a flurry of activity, waking up at 5am everyday for school, going shopping every week to get the right colour and type of top for choir for sunday, practicing guitar for cg, started having class for guitar... and my weekends for the next couple of weeks are packed too. it's so incredible how everything falls into place when you take a step in God's direction - and as a result take a step in the direction that God wants you to go.

anyway. a result of all the activity is that i've been shopping for stuff and spending a lot of money. and that's rather upsetting... cos the macboook + makeup + clothes has meant that i haven't saved money for 2 months. worse still i've been drawing from my savings cos i give my parents a sizable amount of my salary. even so... i went for the IT fair at suntec today. oops.

i meant to get a wireless presenter, a 1 TB harddisk, the converter for the mac port to VGA cable... out of these i only got my hd... and my $$ disappeared into a pair of earphones and an iphone case. justified cos my earphones have died and they had good ones with a $30 discount. anyway this story is really about my hd.

so i was walking around... and the Western Digital one was selling at $139... and so was the seagate one (from the official booth). then i went a bit further in and there was a retailer selling the seagate at $129... so i got it. happily thinking it would be as small as the WD one cos what the sales guy showed me was the 500GB sized one. left the place rather disappointed that i didn't get all i wanted and was completely bushed from fighting the crowds... then.. i went back in cos a friend was in there and i wanted to get the iphone case that i spied earlier. oops. which resulted in me testing earphones and getting a pair. 1 x happy moment =) they deserve their own post tomorrow when i unpack em.

went for service for the third time lol. cos i had promised the friends (and got ditched by one). was kinda wilting by then cos the week had been long, packed with events but little sleep.. so was looking forward to a chill dinner then going home. BUT. a couple of us started comparing the 1 TB hds we bought and i opened my box to find a huge hulking thing! omg. for $10 more i could have gotten the nice compact WD one!!! so i went back into the crazy crowd - all upset cos of this 'waste of money' in an attempt to get it changed. to add to my bad mood, the person there couldn't change it - and it was a valid reason... i had torn off the sticker and opened the box and no one would trust an opened hard disk. -.-"

came home without dinner... worn out... hungry... upset... annoyed... beating myself up for making such a quick decision instead of walking around more and comparing specifications (the one that i bought was USB 2.0 instead of the WD USB 3.0 as well) beating myself up for beating myself up (cos i should be trusting God for finances???) and then about 40 min ago i picked up the zone magazine that they gave out yesterday - one of the articles was on homeless people and being a blessing to others. all my annoyance went 'poof!' when i read it, cos right at that moment i realised how blessed i was to simply buy all the stuff i bought and complain about their prices when there are so many poor, so many homeless, and so many dead/dying cos of the recent earthquakes. hum. put in perspective... i'm blessed. my God provides... and none of these worries and annoyances have any actual influence on the world and life at all - but I DO.