i think it's ridiculous that i was in the shower and on the verge of tears while talking to God... when i paused and kept them in check.

and the thought that went through my head was rather pathetic - 'lol... you're in the shower with water running down your face so you wouldn't have to see/ feel the tears of your weakness... and you're still afraid of someone seeing them'

Lord you gotta free me from me man...

that said... i finally have the peace to go to sleep... but boo i have to be up in 4 hours to go to work.