being sick of home... having no place to go and no one to talk to... i went for a walk with Daddy God... and it turned into a 2 hour saga (haha. melvin's intro of me yday was spot on.) went from home to rivervale plaza... followed the lrt track and found myself at compass point (very longwinded walk)... followed the lrt track of the other loop and found myself at the unbuilt end of anchorvale where i met the sengkang sports complex for the first time (the pool is super huuge and pretty... makes me wanna swim in it haha.) then walked the long way back home =)
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loneliness is more difficult when you aren't actually alone - cos you can't blame it on the fact that there isn't anyone around you
that said...
loneliness isn't true loneliness when Daddy is with you... just have to realise it.
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appreciation is a difficult lesson to learn...
the smell of cut grass after a rainy day is nice.
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being an arty farty person... you kinda have to emo.
being emo is the key actually.
you take feelings - and you mould them... into words... notes... shapes... shades... colours and present them for the world to see... and identify with - creations that let people know they're not alone. creativity is born when you find some new expression... new overtones/ undertones... when you merge straightforward emotions with complex situations.. when you create - a film/ a dance/ a photo/ a painting/ a piece of writing...
being emo... you fixate... on the hows, the whens, the whys... being blessed with a good brain... you look for the whys behind the whys... the contingency hows... the what ifs.
being a child of God... you realise (hopefully) that it doesn't matter.
instead of 'why am i here' - it's 'i believe Daddy has good plans to bless me, even here'
instead of 'i hate this job' - it's 'i believe Daddy has me here for a reason, to do something/ meet someone/ to bless and be blessed'
instead of 'i can't do this anymore' - it's 'i believe that Daddy You fight for me... it is done'
instead of 'i can't meet up to expectations - it's 'Jesus is my perfect sacrifice... and i can do all things through Christ'
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i learnt alot in 2 hrs i think =P
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