haha dunce

I....

went to Rivervale Mall to return DVDs

I...

happily bought KFC

I...

came home and realised i locked myself out

I...

sat at the void deck and ate my KFC

I...

watched this dirt bug eat my cheese fries then keel over and stop moving

I...

went to my floor and sat on the staircase wondering if anyone would walk by... and what they'd think if they saw me sitting there

I...

got rescued 2 hrs later by my parents at 1040pm

hahaha.... and i'm not even 19 yet

You are about 20 years old

The teen repellent will no longer foil you, but you can still hear some pretty high tones. The highest pitched ultrasonic mosquito ringtone that I can hear is 16.7kHz

Find out which ringtones you can hear!

gosh. randomness thanks to janice h. she's a dog... or maybe a mosquito.. so the thing says.

...i am reminded of how big my butt was in sec sch when i wear the rg shorts...

couldn't resist this

cool guy on tramp... his simple drops are spectacular - especially the backdrops...



same guy... his lift is AMAZING... and he's more flexi than i am... well he's a professional... but WOW.



and stuff he's only been doing for 2 weeks... or so the post says

so there

back from campus and i gotta admit... again... i didnt absorb that much =P JANE WAS AWAY! and i suddenly had to take over projection 0_0 between hweifen and I panicking... we got something done =) so service wasnt half bad heh.

cool stuff i'm revisiting...


i personally like the jumping jacks... look out for them



and this little kiddy is STRONG.



check out this guy's belly! haha. doesnt take that much skill to do what he's doing... but at that SIZE...



and THIS... omg



okay enough for today =)

approx 180 pieces of paper. fold. stuff into approx 60 envelopes.

job.

well... among other things larh.

happy chinese new year =)

i am wearing new clothes... new office clothes.. so i can go see my grandma 0_o
i so do not look like me... and she's probably gonna tell me to eat more =S

just came back from KL visiting the M'sia relatives
recount of journey....

DAY 1
woke at 4am... left house at 5am
dad stops car for food at 6am after causeway... break he calls it... didnt join him
dad stops car for food at 7am... breakfast he calls it
dad stops car for food at 9am... breakfast he calls it (breakfast 2)
dad stops car for toilet break at 10am... and grabs something else
dad stops car for food at 12pm... brunch he calls it (more like breakfast 4)
then we reach KL toll and it starts raining
dad makes random turnings trying to find Petaling St (Chinatown)
dad finds Chinatown and waits in the car while we get out to buy bak kua... it is raining
dad horns frantically and tells us to get back in... the street is flooding and is ankle deep
mom is disappointed... so we go shopping in Mid Valley Mega Mall... as usual...
so we reach my aunt's place at 5pm... or so... and meet the cousins... and other cousins...
then off to eat reunion dinner... and find one uncle is M.I.A. and off catching a baby
back 'home'... eat reunion dinner no. 2... homemade this and that...
reunion dinner no. 3... when catching uncle appears...
watch Infernal Affairs till 2am... then sleep

DAY 2
wake up... angpao time! didnt get very much... just enough to pay for dad's petrol =)
then we're off driving to Malacca... (for the journey... refer to journey to KL.. somth like tt)
reach WaterCity hotel?resort? get checked into this minute room...
mom goes and complains... then we get this 3 room apartment! overlooking water somemore...
we bum around... then decide to go shopping... buy food... more food... yah...
back to hotel... around 1230am... and poof... BLACKOUT at my block
flounder around in the dark... then lights come on... watch random show and go to bed
wake up... and wanna go canoeing around the lake... then it starts raining
breakfast is for two... so i opt out (after all that eating!!! gosh)
me very irritated... pray for rain to stop so i can go canoeing
rain stops! happy me goes canoeing...
then we change and zao and go back to s'pore (again... refer to journey to KL)

whoo.

i think... perhaps... maybe... i need to lose the fat.

*prods stomach*

*stomach wobbles and runs away*

ah. what to do? chinese new year goodies... 2kg is no joke leh.

-make that "i need to lose the fat"-

oh yah

i wanted to blog this but i forgot

something about what pastor said at bible study

Creation is God's domain
The creation of a human being is one thing that God has allowed man to take part in - no successful synthetic humans so far...

So babies are the most precious thing man can make


haha pastor is much more eloquent than that. the gist of it is there i think.
but yeah it kinda sums up why i'm interested in being a gynaecologist

i wanna catch babies =), see life... even though i know that as a doc i'll probably have to carry out abortions and see stillbirths, see the children born die due to complications ... i can't explain it, there's something supernatural about a fresh life, a baby being born... and i want to be part of the process - to bring life into this world. it's like seeing creation... and God's hand over and over again.

obsession about life ha... amazing. from someone like me =P









something more random...

You Are In a Crunch Ice Cream

The perfect combo: a completely nuts person who likes to be touched

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

lol... if you refresh the page you get different ice-cream

don't think so much

it's strange how a thin piece of metal... or anything sharp for that matter can send shivers down my spine. i don't think it's fear... actually i don't know. it's very strange. i know i'm delivered - from all that which has been plaguing me the last few years... all the fear that i'd have to go through that much pain again... the fear that i'll do myself in

it's difficult to tell anyone anything. considering that it's me... it's difficult to even say anything outside of 'okay' when someone asks 'how are you?' the closest i've come to anything like that was to proclaim that i was still alive. though i guess at that point there was nothing else to hold on to.

how can anyone understand - unless they've gone through something similar - which i wouldn't wish on anyone. EVER.

how do you tell anyone that you were so broken that you felt that you lost your mind, that you had no more soul? Where is that courage for me to be a testimony... that God put the broken pieces together and sealed it up and made it better than it was before.

Where is that courage to talk of the journey... no matter how painful - of the nights whacking the wall in frustration.. of the days in the toilet holding the knife that my mom used to cut chicken bones... of the days surfing the web searching for ways to die... of the nights just crying till it was time to wake up as the quarrels went on and on... as the days passed being burdened to be the best people believed i could be. To speak of how even after i knew God had saved me, the guilt was so much that the knife took its place... and took away hope... and took away emotions, took away happiness.... and built that big wall to prevent anything from coming in to hurt me again... the wall that also hid the damage i was causing myself. within that wall... the skeletons i had so hurriedly shoved into the closet when my life was saved burst out and started beating me on the head.



how do you tell anyone that God has healed your mind and cleaned up your soul and given you joy when the thoughts are still there, the temptation just sitting in your pencil case?



it's just too simple... to just pick up anything sharp and cut again. to feel the blood flowing... to remember to be alive... then the scar to remember the promise i made to keep living.



i am no longer broken... in fact i'm happy... but the devil keeps poking me with thoughts... thoughts to feel the sharp edge cut in one last time... and then the euphoria of doing it over and over and over until i make a mess.... thoughts that slip in in the quiet moments i want to spend with Daddy God... thoughts that enter when i'm not thinking about anything else...

Man. so pathetic.



Jesus... all my fears they fade away
When I see You
When I see You

i thought of something fascinating in the afternoon at work... but i cant remember what it was... darn

i wanna throw a tantrum!

hm... i feel abit like this kid... or maybe the dad...




yah... ignore the end bits




hm... or maybe this mom would be a better choice...









haha the ads are damn amusing arent they...

i really want to kill something right now =(





help.

so cleaning my room is beginning

i was reading my abandoned journal... (yah i got sidetracked) this is what one of the entries said:

" And my heart's cry
Lord I want to live for You
I don't just want to exist, I want to get over the past and move on. I want to be a testimony, not a weak fool. I want to live the life You planned for me"

amazingly... it has happened/ is happening.

Thank You Daddy =)

stuff i need to do before uni

in no particular order...

1. study for basic theory & take test
2. learn driving & advanced theory
3. rip and burn cds for dad
4. finish cross stitch
5. pack my tables and floor (the room's not too messy) - hopefully by today =P
6. finish learning Classical Gas
7. learn how to play Radical Dreamers
8. read the bible at least once through
9. learn photoshop from nbyn
10. make my paper model train i bought from taiwan
11. try to shrink that phonics pdf file...
12. clean up my bio notes so i can sell them - i think i have to get rid of all the diagrams... maybe put spaces so people can draw their own... and references so they can find the pics in campbell perhaps
o Carbon
o Water
o Water relations
o Lipids
o Cell membrane structure
o Microscopy
o Carbohydrates
o Proteins
o Enzymes
o Mitosis & meiosis
o Genetic control & inheritance
o Inherited changes
o Evolution
o Transport in mammals
o Respiration
o Photosynthesis
o Ecology
o Transport in plants
o Homeostasis, liver, endocrine
o Kidney (to make)
o Nervous control
o Molecular genetics
o Intro to biotech (to make)
o Medical biotech
o Food biotech
o Agricultural biotech (to finish)
o Environmental biotech (to make)
uh... 13? learn makeup from nbyn?


-hm i think that's it... nice ending number-


on a side note... stuff i need to do around march
1. apply to uni
2. do that psc scholarship application =S

powerful

this song came to me as a fleeting thought... and is now stuck heh.

Rejoice O Israel (Shalom Jerusalem)

I behold a city on a hill,
A nation torn by war,
But in that place Jehovah says,
His grace has been poured forth.

I behold a people who
Are waiting for the Lord
For He will come with trumpet sounds,
As nations watch in awe.

Shalom Jerusalem,
Messiah will come.
He’ll wipe away your tears and pain,
Rejoice, daughter of Zion.

Shalom Jerusalem,
Peace be within your walls,
Yeshua will return to reign
In majesty and power.

When we see the Son of God,
Descending from the clouds,
He’ll be arrayed in light,
Shining glorious and bright,
On New Jerusalem

Shalom Jerusalem,
Messiah will come.
He’ll wipe away your tears and pain,
Rejoice, daughter of Zion.

Shalom Jerusalem,
Peace be within your walls,
Yeshua will return to reign
In majesty and power.

He’ll wipe away your tears and pain,
Rejoice, O Israel.


music with the Jewish tunes/ words seem to really stick... i learnt a couple of hebrew worship songs when i was 7 at festival of praise... and i've never forgotten them. heh. the melodies are so beautiful --

i think this song is written by karen from church... not quite Jewish eh... but if you were at the service where this was sung - you'll know what i mean