was listening to a sermon - which ended and went on to one on praying in the spirit.. praying in tongues... and after the sermon i was just so full.. gosh... fuller than i've felt in a long long time.
and just for the record... it really really works... something i forgot completely in the past year since the last time i heard the sermon. wow. =)
He who speaks in a tongue edifies himself, but he who prophesies edifies the church
~1 Corinthians 14:4
to fill yourself... satisfy your inner man... and he answered the 'isn't tongues just a gift' question i've been asked (and had no answer to) - i instinctively understand what & why... but it's hard to explain to people...
in any case i've been cranking up the faith meter in prayer =) how to walk in the spirit... ehehehe let's see the fruits manifest in bible study and worship leading! amen?
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the products of baking with shu zhen:
kueh lapis: has 20 egg yolks, 4 egg whites and two packs of butter
lemon meringue pie: so we didn't have to just wait for the kueh lapis
and two batches of plain meringue... cos we had 16 egg whites left from the kueh lapis -.-"
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discoveries... yday zhenqiang came to cook sambal kangkong. so:
1. i got woken up...
2. changed the extractor fan paper (cos we were going to fry blachan) - and found that the whole lid was covered in dried oil... which incidentally took 15 min to scrub off... EEW.
3. i opened the fridge looking for the milk
and found a lemon
which had reverted to it's original unripe colour -.-"
EWW. and i hadn't eaten my breakfast before any of that. ugh.4. oh and *then* i opened the fridge again for the milk... and found a baking tray of char siew sauce with a thick layer of fat on top. (damn gross... i already scraped off half the fat when i made it) well. somehow it looked like dessert... and i dunno why but the last person who ate the last bit didn't wash the bloody tray. erk.
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emotions.
i wonder how my mom is feeling/ coping...
to find out that your mom had a heart attack with complications for the op... and having to take care of her and your husband as well (who incidentally is like a little boy sometimes)... and work.
i felt quite emotionally stunted - didn't reply the email when it happened cos i didn't know what to say... didn't know what to say when i was calling home and receiving the full details of the news...
what do you do when your parents start complaining to you about each other? about their situation(s)? about money?
point them to Jesus?
it's surprisingly hard...
i'm pretty bad at handling emotions... wired to be too emo.. to think & feel too much...and in dealing with them i don't explode unlike many people who just get it over and done with (i probably implode...) - more often than not i become unfeeling... so that it can fade a bit before i have to deal with anything, or till i can be alone to deal with them.. which sometimes isn't a good thing at all =S
loving people hurts.
i wonder how Jesus managed to do it..
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took a walk today in hyde park on the way back from church while ken and gordon took the tube...spending alone time with Daddy is awesome.and it's amazing, that i haven't really done that for one term. it's like i ration out my time... 30 min for you God, then i need to do work...
haha. unfortunately i tend to do that alot.
but right... if Daddy takes care of everything... i only need to chill out and enjoy life. hmm it's like i keep learning the same lessons over and over again (reinforcement hehe.) to trust in Him, depend on Him... to realise just how little i've been doing that (yea... i burnt out by the end of last term)
to live.
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