or so hwei would say...
i think some people have been wondering why i dont go for all the cg outings.. or even just cg... it's just too painful for fight for it cos my mom digs up the past and throws it in my face.. we came to a compromise, sorta, that i can go for either something on saturday or something on sunday. and yes, i'd pick sunday service over caregroup
yesterday i made an exception - and a good one it was =)
i think... cos jiahao asked directly, and there wouldn't be any chance of going for cg nearer the A levels... i decided to ask... and decided that i would just miss today's service
worship was ... powerful to say the least, somehow i took a very very long time to get into the flow. only after the 5th song (and there were only 6 in total) did i realise the 'who' i was singing about. then God rushed in and took over. there was such an undescribable presence in the house, jiahao and coach andy started speaking over us.. i don't remember what they said and i don't think i really heard them [it was really strange... like i was underwater or something] but my spirit was jumping up and down shouting "YES and AMEN"!
they called for people who wanted acceleration... so i went to catch people first..
then jiahao decided to pray for me suddenly lol.
i guess prayers are private =) but he said somth like "without touching you i can feel the anointing flow over you" and i thought "oh is that what it is?" lol. it was.. warm... then he said "like oil" and i dunno whether he touched me or not (maybe my hair =P) but one moment i was standing, the next i was falling and wondering why in the world i was falling... could feel whoever it was struggling to catch me... heavyweight i am =P
[that was for you, all you people who want(ed) to know what being slain is like]
what happened yesterday.. i never felt before. i was on fire.. it was Hot! Hot! Hot!... and such assurance and love... and... strength was imparted to keep the fire for God burning and... strength to 'give away?' to love people.. so different! that is, from everything i've felt from various prayers...before it was all healing of brokenness.. this was empowerment.
then the message:
it was about the Benjamin generation... -who we are- and to know how to take for ourselves the benefits God has already given.
Benjamin had:
5x the food => bread of God - the word
5x the clothes => that we are clothed in righteousness and are now entitled all the benefits
and ps darren's revelation... tt got passed down through jiahao
"Benjamin is a ravenous wolf;
In the morning he shall devour the prey,
And at night he shall divide the spoil" ~Genesis 49:27
Benjamin is hungry for more - and he eats without having to fight
=> God has fought your battle and what you take from him is according to your hunger - to eat of the 'bread of life' of the word in the day.
the blessings/ benefits that Benjamin had were given to him in accordance to his 'hunger'
=> you obtain benefits from God later - and this is 'spoil' for you need not work for it.
the message opened a whole new realm for me... we'll see where it leads =) i just want to really take hold of it and apply it. i dont know how yet... =P as God leads
after that was the bbq! (i dont know how to spell bbq in english =S) fantastic time of fellowship... lol... jiahao accused me of coming just cos there was a bbq but i didnt know about it until fri night! and i decided to go before that. lol.
2 comments:
babe!
I'm so glad you came for cg yesterday! and I could feel that worship was really powerful nearing the end... except that I couldn't see what was going on from the piano and I really wanted to respond to the altar call but couldn't :X reading about your personal experience was encouraging and uplifting to know that God works so tangibly in our presence (:
a couple of leaders i've been serving under have all told me the same thing, and it's really true. there's a different anointing for the people who are serving - a portion set aside for the servers - and i believe that has been imparted and sealed by Jesus =)He's not limited to the laying of hands by leaders (thankfully =P)
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