Friday, May 18, 2007

i don't understand

what it's like to have a sibling.. what the fights are like... what the tender moments are like... what family is like. [and in that category... what it's like to have a sister /brother /older/ younger/ more/ fewer]

what it's like to have half a family.. perhaps someone left/ someone gone... what it's like to be a survivor, the one who's left living when others are dead

what it's like to be stupid/ completely smart/ mediocre
what it's like to be in poly instead of JC... what it's like to be in a JC that isnt the same one as me
what it's like to study in university... to graduate with a piece of paper [diploma/ degree/ masters etc.]... and then to have to make a living...
what it's like to have a boss/ colleagues/ proper working hours

how to love a person... when to touch/ hold/ hug.. when to give.. take.. accept.. reject... compromise... what it's like to cross that line between friendship and relationship... or even.. where that line appears

what it's like to be shunned/ hated... or how two people who seem to hate each other can still live together

rejection from a guy/ a parent/ a spouse/ a child/ a friend

fear of the dark/ light/ animals/ people (depending on who)/ hope/ dreams etc.



the list goes on...



i don't understand your life.
actually i don't understand anything...
i dont even understand my own life



but i know someone who understands everything.
and His name is Jesus.
and i guess. that's all i need to understand.



[this stems from folding 60 pieces of paper into thirds without having to think.. so brain moves into other directions]

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