i just caught myself with the strangest thought.

i was thinking about my interview to get into medicine in NUS... and along those lines came the thought that i shouldn't be thinking about whether my interview could get me in

and then it went on to hey i'm a child of God... even if the interview was terrible... His grace and favour abounds. i should get that place in NUS... where's my faith?

and then hmm... maybe i need to work on having faith

haha. i caught myself there. how strange is that? faith and works simply don't mix... if you work on faith you're telling God "hey God. look at me! see i believe! since i believe you better give it to me! look i have faith.. i have faith... so you must give me okay? see i did so much for you, i gave up so much to show my faith.. comeon God give it to me" in the end it's by your own works that you try to obtain what you want. us foolish men... trying to bargain with God

i must have faith. i must have faith. i must have faith. lol. repeat that more and you'll probably go insane. it doesnt work that way... can't psycho a fallen mind to believe. but faith comes by hearing, and hearing of the word of God... when you have a revelation of how good Daddy is you simply believe and have faith. Just Because.